Quitting smoking is so difficult for christ sakes

If I don’t graduate on time I might die. It’s iffy at this point. Which scares me. I’d be so devastated. But I guess a lot of that’s my fault for not doing shit at school lol. Just a few more weeks and I’ll know what my fate is.. on top of that even if I DO graduate with the rest of my class next month I still have to fucking figure out all this college bullshit, registration for that, getting a job, and how the hell I’m even gonna pay for anything and not grow up to be a janitor. Blah.. this growing up thing just makes me wanna shoot myself in the asshole honestly. Too much. Too too much. 

AM I A COOL KID YET. 

Self harm is something that I’ll never do. I’ve already destroyed my body enough by purging and starving and just general unhealthy habits to go ahead and slash my wrists while I’m at it. But I understand why people do it and sympathize with them.

Plans for the night cancelled! So the one day I actually put an effort into my appearance I have nowhere to go :( Oh well.. tomorrow night will be better.

Well I was going to eat dinner
But then I got on here
After looking at some pictures and realizing still how far I have to go 

Maybe not. 

So much for quitting smoking.
Oh well, it’s been over a week. I needed one. Sorry lungs. Just for today. 

Aaaand this is the face of a girl who just powerwalked for a good 2 1/2 hours straight. I am not going to be able to feel my legs tomorrow but that’s okay I suppose.

If I can be around 106 by at least a month from now, that would be lovely.
Gotta start somewhere and not put your expectations too high.